Written by my daughter Jessica Miller after the loss of her unborn child Sam.. PDF Print E-mail
In Loving Memory...my baby Sam

My Dear baby Sam...

We so awaited your precious arrival on May 8, 2008. Maternity clothes were up hanging...names were being decided on...your Daddy and I had planned to go hear your heartbeat on the Friday after Thanksgiving...your Daddy had never had the chance to hear it. We are so unbelievably sad we never got to meet you. Our hearts have been flooded with sadness. Daddy and I wept over you this week...we still are.

Your big brother Jude prays for your each night before bed...now we pray you are having fun with the angels. Are they tickling you? Do they hold you while they dance? I am asking God to bring an angel to our home to tell me you are there and loving it. I am still your Mommy and you are forever my child. You always have a place in this family. You cannot ever be replaced. We have made you a special box...its nearly full already with cards, loving notes, and a few letters from us. We bought you a toy...framed your ultrasound photo, and put a book in there from a dear friend.

We told your Grandma and Grandpa today...they are so sad with us. You would have absolutely LOVED them...and someday you will know them too.

I am not sure why this has happened. I have been angry over your loss...hope has been difficult to come by. All that I know is that the day you died a piece of me died too. We shared oxygen, food, and blood. Our bond was real, my love. A piece of me is gone and I am mourning that loss. But, I have a real hope too. Because a piece of me is now with Jesus...face to face...it makes me want to be there with you soon! I also think that God created you for Himself...to worship Him...to fellowship with Him...I must say I am jealous...I would have loved more time with you inside of me...I would have loved the chance to hold you, feed you, and kiss your face. We will rejoice over you when we get there, my love.

"Heaven will hold you before we do,
Heaven will keep you safe until we're home with you...
I can't imagine heaven's lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know…all you'll ever know…"

We long for you, Sam....until we see you one day in Heaven...

Mommy, Daddy...and big brother, Jude

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